"Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude." Denis Waitley
I am sitting here this morning "shaming myself" for not getting done what I think I "should" be accomplishing. Change is blossoming all around me and to a certain extent I am immobilized by it. It's an exciting time in my life, but good forward leaps can be just as stressful as challenging ones. One thing I am observing in myself is the thought loop of "I will get on track when...." (the house closes, I move, my condo rents, I become a senior supermodel, I've bleached my teeth, I have a million dollars, my butt is smaller....you know the deal.) However, as I have written before, life continues to present hurdles for us to go over. It's how we learn, grow and become more of who we are meant to be. Embracing this idea helps me step back and examine what I can today to live with love, grace and gratitude.
Another piece to this equation for me is to let some things go. What TRULY needs my attention and what can I let go?
I am not up to date with my thank-yous and obviously haven't posted to this blog. I have created a great amount of stress thinking about how my note writing is getting away from me. How am I going to catch up from about 10 days of not attending to my thank you notes? What a problem of "luxury."
Today is the day that we have. I don't need to go back to a week of yesterday's and attempt to find 10 people to thank. That would be mechanical and not heart-felt. So it takes me 1 1/2 years to write 365 notes. Big whoop-de-do.
My lesson today is to quiet my mind long enough to appreciate the gifts around me and be grateful. I need to step back into my daily practice without judgment around how I let things get away from me. I need to do this in all areas of my world.
